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It’s been two years now; everything has changed, like my whole damn world has flipped since the day he left. Nothings the same. My parents got divorced, I failed, am no longer that “perfect girl”, lost all my friends and moreover lost the only person that made me happy and was the love of my life, Blue.
I don’t really care about the other things that happened cuz losing Blue was in itself the most terrible thing. The last time I saw him was on his dad’s funeral. That day was the worstest*. I had never seen Blue like that before, ever. I wanted to be with him in this tough phase of life. But he just cut me out. I understand that losing his dad was a great shock for him, and at that time this might seem like the best option. But it’s been 1 and a half year since I’ve heard from him. I really want him to know that I still love him, care for him and want to be with him, but he’s deleted all his socials, changed his number and now no one knows where he is. He even left his medical school. His step-mom and step-brother don’t even seem to care the slightest bit either. I don’t know what to do. I really miss him and want him.
From the past two months I’ve regularly been visiting a psychiatrist because alot happened and it was just too much to handle for me. I was in depression. I needed help. And so, the psychiatrist suggested me to write down whatever I felt, everyday on a piece of paper. And thats what I do these days.
My school life has changed too. I have no friends now; not even a single person talks to me. Can’t blame them for this cuz I was the one who stopped talking to everyone and became a loner. Everyone enjoys at school whereas, I sit alone and write. Yeah, writing has become my new passion now. I just love to write nowadays. All my feelings flow on a paper and it just makes me feel light.
One and a half year, thats alot. I miss him but I don’t think he’s ever gonna come back and my psychiatrist told me to move on. So I’m going to try do that. It’s hard but I will try cuz I want my old self back. So Yeah Ima do it!
*After a week*
I can’t. Its really hard. He keeps popping up in my mind like before. I’ve even searched on “tips to forget your ex” on the internet. But nothings helping.
Why did he do this to me? Why do I love him so much? Why aint he going out of my heart? Why do I in the whole world have all the problems?? Why, God WHyyyyy??!?!
On a bright Sunday morning, when all the kids were playing in the park and having fun, I was there, sitting alone on the bench, doing nothing. And all of a sudden, there’s this familiar change in the atmosphere. It’s the same feeling I had when I first met Blue. But then I tell myself that Blue’s gone; he won’t ever come back. Then when I get up to go home, out of nowhere someone pulls my arm from the back and I fall into that persons arms. That person seemed familiar to me but I couldn’t really recognize. And that’s when I looked into those eyes, those blue, oceanic and dreamy eyes. I scream!! That person is none other than Blue! My Blue!!
“Sia”, he softly says and gives me a tender kiss, which I shouldn’t, but do give back. But then I back off cuz suddenly it comes to my mind that I’m angry at him. And so I blast. Whatever I held from so long I say it all to him, in one go.
And he replies, “I’m really really sorry Sia, I seriously am. I know I shouldn’t have just left you. But after my dad’s death I just couldn’t handle it. I didn’t know what to do. So, I started drinking and taking drugs. I wanted to end my life cuz that sounded the perfect thing at that point. My life already got ruined the day my dad left and I didn’t wanna ruin yours cuz you mean alot to me. I didn’t wanna see you sad by this change in me. I thought you’d be better off without me. But I guess my assumption was wrong. I spoiled it even more and you can’t even imagine how much it hurts. From the past one year, I was in rehab. I lost all hope and didn’t wanna get better but then the doctor gave me some hope, and that hope was you. Every single day I spent there was tough but the thought of you, kept me alive. And so I’m here. And I love you so soo much and I promise I won’t ever leave you. And I know that saying sorry won’t heal anything, but still I am going to say sorry anyway…..”
And without a second thought, I’m on my tiptoes and kissing him.
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